Husna Bokhari

Today, I felt moved to write about this because of the longing I have to return there again. Al-Haramain refers to the two holy sites for Muslims — Makkah and Madinah.

My first Umrah was when I was 10 years old. It was a self-organized trip by my family — my parents and eight siblings, excluding my oldest brother who was studying in England at the time. It remains one of my best childhood memories. Of course, at that age, I was too young to truly understand the deeper spiritual meaning behind it all. For me, it simply felt like a joyful family trip — we ate good food, prayed together, and shared beautiful moments as a family.

Fast forward to April 2025, the second day of Eid al-Fitr, I was blessed with the opportunity to be Allah’s guest once again for Umrah. This time, it was me, my elder sister (number 6), my elder brother (number 7), his wife, and their adorable 8-month-old baby. I felt a tremendous sense of gratitude to be given another chance to visit the holy lands — something I had been praying and saving for little by little over the years.

At that time, my life felt hectic, messy, and a little haywire. So being given this opportunity felt like Allah was allowing me to pause — to breathe for a while, to let go of worldly worries, and to reset my purpose in life while strengthening my faith.

The feeling in Makkah is unlike anywhere else. It’s vibrant, alive, and full of movement — people rushing everywhere, each with their own purpose and devotion. Everything needs to be done quickly and efficiently, yet there’s a unique sense of unity in that pace.

Madinah, on the other hand, is completely different. It is tranquil and peaceful beyond words. I remember going to Masjid Nabawi alone as often as I could, except during Zuhr and Asr because of the heat. The feeling when you are there is indescribable — the tears come so easily, and your heart feels overwhelmed with reflection, hope, and repentance.

My ultimate aim, insha’Allah, is to perform Hajj before I turn 40. I wish to do it while I’m still young and energetic enough to perform all the rituals with full devotion. May Allah grant this wish and make it easy for me — and for all who long to be His guests again.